Practicum Days: Day 11

Maybe I'm a bit un-well today...
Maybe I'm being too emotional..
But I still can't process the fact that I feel hopeless at the moment..
I feel as if I can't do anything to help my students..
I'm starting to doubt my ability..
I'm starting to question my self...

The blank faces..
The uneasy stare..
The confusions and coldness...

Will I ever touch their hearts?
Will they ever learn something from me?
will they even remember all the hard work I put into everything..?
Do they know how much I want them to succeed in life>?

I think I could just ignore them..
But part of me cared for them.. perhaps too much..
I never cared about anyone as much as I cared for them before.
Maybe that's what making me so weak. so fragile... that I could break down and cry..

Am I regretting my decision?
No, I don't....

Do I hate my life?
No, I don't....

Funny isn't it?
How I still love my students even when they made me cry...

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Practicum Days: Day 5 (Part 1)

We came in this morning, and our chairs were missing...

SOmeone had took it for the event yesterday...
and never brought it back..

(Grrrr... anak sapa la ni!??!! s%&/*)

Grumbling tummy... Minor headache..
I was informed that
The teachers' toilet were locked!

OMG.. OMG...
(someday someone's gonna shit their pants!)


The classes started quite late today.
They have 'Yaasin Recitation' this morning.
It took up half period of my class.


In da morning I have one class with double period to relief.
while looking for the class, (3 Al-Furqan)
and I got lost!!

and finally found the class when the period is over.


The rest of the day I was free..
and the boredom crept in.

10.40am to 11.45am
I was hoping that I'll get the chance to observe my class's teacher teaching.
I was sent to the class 'alone Instead.


Form 4 Al-HAriri
My practicum class.

My heart pounded like crazy as I walk through the corridor ..
Crazy noises from the class cool down as I enter..

SOmehow, by miracle..
I managed to keep my composure and stayed calm all through the first period...
As usual, the first session is the introductory session.
I wanted to get to know my students and build a rapport with them..

I told them to work in groups and create a nonsensical story..
Everything went well until........

one of my students got up, holding his right eye.

I was curious of course.


He showed me his eyes. They were teary.
It was red..

(Is that blood?)
(Gosh! what happened exactly?)

I was still and confused..

He threw a fist at his friend..
The table shifted it place..

and he kicked him.


Oddly, I didn't freaked out.
It was like I was watching an Action MOVIE!
except, it was LIVE! LoLoL..

I tried to break the fight but he was furious
and kept on coming to get the other boy..

Soon, his other friends tried to calm him down.
They took him away..

For a moment, there were silence...

I learn later that it was an accident.
They were snatching the paper (of the nonsensical story)
one of them were holding a pencil..
and by accident the boy poked his friends' eye..
and all Hell break loose...

When the bell rang, we head home..
I didn't manage to find the injured student.
I have no idea where he was..
I just hoped that he'll be fine.

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Practicum Days: Day 4

It's the day of the carnival...
Students swarms the school as early as 6.40am.
Today, the morning and the afternoon session combines..
To celebrate this day.

We were busy...
Decorating and stuff..

Preparing door gifts...

simple yet meaningful..


Look at the sea of people!
This is what happens
When the morning and afternoon sessions combines.. XD
Just as soon as the assembly ends,
students swarms each booths..

Our main attraction was this quiz thingy..
It was like a mini game interface..
with voices some more.

The kids loved it!

We also have other games...

and Spelling bee..

Students enjoyed our games..
It was easy for them to win.
They'd either have to read the tongue twisters 
Or guess items from the charades
Or spell simple words.. :)

It was great having all of them in our booth! :D


Before noon,
we wrapped up our booth.

(The earliest booth to wrap up! haha)
we've finished giving out all prizes and door gifts..

It was an enjoyable day for us..

Such a cool experience... ^^

Thanks for the memories............ SMKP.

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Practicum Days: Day 3

Chilly morning.. 
Students aren't wearing their usual white shirts...

Today is the Club Meeting Day.
We were invited to join the English Club...

Danica (UNiTAR Trainee) lead the activity for that day..


We played 'Hangman'.
Students seemed to enjoy the game..

Few students who were playing truant disturbed our session for a few moments..
We're Glad that Danica was there to handle them. 

She's new, But yet she's capable. ^^

Back in the teachers' room, I received another 'slip for relief classes.

Out I go to meet my students...

3 Al-Ikhlas, next door to my  4 Al-Ghazali
*4 Al-Ghazali from my 2nd Day*

The moment my form 4 students saw me, they were surprised.
They thought I was coming to their class... :)

Unfortunately I'm not.
I have to meet up with my form 3 students.


"Class stand uuUup! GooOod MooOooRninG teacher~!!"
Hmm.. The usual greeting 'song'..

It was as if they were singing a choir of some sort.

It seems like they were missing a few students..
Class monitor said they went home to get their books..

During my time, there'll be NO such case..
What's happening to my school's discipline? 
Has it all went down the drain?
No name tags, No badges, Long Nails, SHort scarfs, Untidy clothes...etc.. etc..
You name it!

Deep down, I feel so sad of the current state of my own former school..
Even more frustrating is that I couldn't do anything about it. :'(

They woke me up from my own thoughts...

"..we have to rewrite the information on the board."
Me: "I'll give you 10minutes and then we'll start".

Few of the students had done their work,
some of them are still busy copying from the board.
Boys at the back are chatting with each other.
When they're done, I formally introduce myself.
and since it's a half an hour session, 
I only called out their names just to make sure that none of them are missing..
I told them to get into 3 groups.. 
(which later, became 4 groups).

I told them to come up with a sentence, 
and work with the group members to create a story.

They were clueless at first, didn't know what to do, or what to write.

I explained that they can write whatever they want to, be it in Malay or English.

Minutes after that I read aloud their story and they all went laughing listening to each others' stories..

There was a story of a husband throwing his wife in the well..
A transvestite in Kampung Air..
A boy shitting his pants...

It was a fun experience.

When it was time for me to leave,
The students weren't paying attention..
They were busy chatting... 
still talking about the stories they made up.

When the class monitor noticed that I was still there..
He quickly said "Thaaaank Youuuu teacher!"
which the rest obligaely follows.

They were confused because I did not leave their class.
I just can't stand that they have little respect for their teacher..
Saying thank you without even meaning it.
I just have to teach them some manners. 

So, I told them to get to get to their seats,
and stand up properly..
When they focus their attention to me,

Kindly, I told them that they are good students and that they have to behave well and respect all the teachers who taught them.
and to only say thank you when they really mean it.

They thanked me once again and I can see that there's a change in them.

Back in the teachers' room, 
we were told that we have our own table! ^^  

It's pretty small and the space are limited.
But, that'll do for now.
Better than nothing at all I suppose.... 

I had a free time and started to work on my S.O.P Report.
But the room condition was so comfortable that it made me sleepy..
(reading academic work always makes me wanna ZzZZZz)

So, I requested to join Sheila's Class afore I fall asleep..

Teacher Judy introduced us to Form 4 Al-Razi which Sheila will be teaching.
They were doing their Oral presentation for 'ULBS' evaluation.

I can see a lot of potential from this class.
Their English language proficiency is quite impressive.
The fact that they can share things in front of the class confidently, made me quite proud of them. I never thought I'd witness such great occasion. 

Sheila is very lucky this time! ^^
I'm sure they'll have s good time.

Later tonight,

we are preparing for 

'Education For Life' Carnival

which will be held tomorrow.


Until Tomorrow~~~
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